Love Me Unequivocally

Today I'm gonna close my eyes

So when I reopen them tomorrow

I won't see what I've seen in days past

Can't say I'm tired

Just understand I'm just done

Over yonder has exhausted my efforts

Over here is where my attention is nestled

Fighting has me battered and bruised

To a larger extent leaving me dazed and confused

Friends offered nothing but to turn their backs

Family disturbed the peace then resisted arrest

For so long I've blamed them...

Yet I've failed to understand I enabled them...

Happiness was fulfilled through them...

Not me

Stick with me now...

Fear was masked and unveiled by them

A delusional me

In the shadows I spoke as an adult

Although every action screamed as a child

Questioning why did they...Instead why didn't I

No need to pick up the pieces 

It's time to move the emotions inside

Redefine and Clarify

Me!

I'm smashing every reflection of me as I am today

Understanding my happiness can't be...

Reliant on the acceptance and approval of others

So I'm methodically conducting a reevaluation

Geared towards self preservation

Pragmatically extricating dysfunctional conduct

That prevents unconditional happiness in any condition 

By doing what no other except me can do...

Love me unequivocally !