Home Wrecked

Long before her,
My plead for us...
My plead to you
Unanswered like the vows taken
You pledged...
To love me
To support me
But like an unwanted child
You chose to abort me
Alienate my passion
Abuse my trust
Manipulate my love...

Yes! I've wondered away
But you never held my heart close
I was an convenience
Prodding you for just some time..
As a consequence
Your withdrawal allowed her to draw me near
She isn't you
I dare not to compare her to you...

You were my heart
The beating of my soul
Were the actions completed with conviction
In my vows I endured to accomplish
For better or worst
Until death must we part
There was nothing better
And always something worst
My soul
My spirit
My heart
My life
Slowly died with every attempt to reconcile

Yes, I've wondered away
You'll never know the torture
I endured to leave or stay
In my children's voices I heard the hurt
From their eyes I wiped away the tears
In the stillness of the night
The floor caught my tears
In the day her voice comforted my worries

All these years I asked...
Why? Why are you still here
So vague of a response
My heart ached
My spirit cringed
My mind went blank
My soul woke up in her laughter
She allowed me to love
Most importantly she show me
Placing before me emotions
I long dreamt of
At the end of this chapter
Terms have been reached
Conclusions have been made...

I was never meant to be loved by you
This purpose was to grow through you
In faith in have placed my future
My heart I've placed in the care of another
You may never understand
Or maybe you will...
You wrecked more than our home
But she, she nursed my ability
To trust and to love
In that she made sure I knew
I was her world
Her man
Her now and forever
You can have this wrecked home
We are building a new filled with love.