Can't Love You

I thought I could,
But I can't
The flowers
The candy
Even the poems inspired by you
I've listened to
Your words...
So eloquent
Your tone...
So majestic
Mesmerized
Truly I am
You're the perfect woman
I've held the ideal woman
In my mind for decades
Only to realize today
I can't love you

When first we met
I thought I was the luckiest man in the world
Indeed I was
That walk...gracious!
That voice...good God almighty!
You provided me with everything...
I do mean everything I ever wanted from...
A woman
You made living so much easier
Anything I asked of you...
You did without question
We had amazing sex
Thinking about it makes my toes curl
You have been everything I wanted from
A woman
In my mind I created the ideal woman
And my god you are exactly that
For the first time ever today I realized
I can't love you

You are as beautiful
As a spring morning
Perfect like the day we met
To this day it's seems surreal
Unexplainable really
We got caught on this magical ride
That lead up to this moment
Dinner and a movie
A walk in the park
Talking on the bench by the waterfall
Fascinating to finally be...
Where I stand before you
With tears streaming down my face
Knowing you're all the woman
I ever wanted
Visualising life beyond this moment
Has allowed perspective to soak
And reality to grip truth
Love you I truly do
As you've been everything I ever wanted
From a woman
Upon a deeper reflection of us
I can't love you

I wanted so badly
To give you everything you wanted
Instead of listening with my heart
I saw everything through society
I thought of giving you the world
Would keep you satisfied
Equated to temporary success
I thought making you smile
Would eliminate the conflicts
It just pebbles into boulders
Love you I absolutely do
If you were to leave
I'm unsure of my response
What I know is every night
I hear you crying alone
What I've seen
Is not the joy seen in the beginning
You've been everything I ever wanted
But I haven't given you...
The one thing you truly needed and wanted...
Me...