Cries Of A Hurting Man

If possible 

Would you be my safe haven to cry

So tired of pretending to be strong

Would you ridicule me for confessing my greatest fears

Could you truly understand 

I am heavily flawed and deeply troubled

Concealed in my smile is a painful truth

My burdens have buried me alive

I've kicked and screamed...

And was told I was the problem 

But damn...

Can't someone...any one

Look into my soul and see...

I'm fighting for my life 

Battling problems that are beating the hell out of me

Please I need someone to talk to

Lay bare my anxieties

Before my anxieties lay me to rest 

I present you with the weakest version myself 

A tortured man

I'm not seeking sympathy 

Nor am I craving for attention 

Just a little understanding 

And the listening ear of one

Who I genuinely hope...

And pray cares sincere enough..

About me...

To truly see me...

Me!

To appreciate my strengths 

In the face of all my weaknesses 

Because I know...

If I could

I honestly need...

Someone to talk to...

I don't want to feel ashamed when I confess my truths

Let not my fears be the justification of my embarrassment 

If only I could reveal to you

The hurting child that hid in darkness 

In order to protect himself from the world

Yet hurting from wanting to be love

Longing to feel complete

If I can

Trust you with all that I am

Without fear of judgment 

Please I beg of you...

Don't laugh at me

Although I feel you'll abandon me

Just like all those before you have...

I've tried to be strong 

Fight with all the strength I could muster 

Only to understand I was fighting myself 

I wish could've talked to you

Maybe I should have

Unfortunately I've lived with so much regret

Harbored so much shame

Within is a heart filled with tears

Although my eyes won't reveal a single drop

If I can

Would it be safe for me to confide in you

Without repercussions of being less that perfect

I'm sure I'll never know 

Because my hurt took away the courage to ask you so..