With Love Always

Rena, Grandma Ida, Mama

Please forgive me

I fought so hard

I gave until...

Until I had almost none left for me

Rena...

There were days we'd 

Talk on end on how I could manage

I still can hear you say...

Take your pills...

Do the best you can...

And what you can't leave it to God

Rena I miss your smile..

I miss your laughter 

For what I've been through I needed you 

So very much

Grandma Ida

I'm so much older

Deep down I'm always that little kid

That just needs his Grandma 

Your love for me...

No one has ever replaced 

Mama has loved me...

Even she hasn't conquered your space

Grandma I miss our bonding

I miss how you protected me

How I just felt safe when near you

Mama...

There isn't nothing to say 

You are the beginning and end of me

All that I became is because of your investment 

In my success...

Your devotion in the face of my defeat 

To never see me wither 

In the end I'm distraught over my present 

Even though I know it's what's best for my future

I pray that you forgive me for failing your expectation 

Hopefully in the future I can make up for my transgressions 

With love always....