Admitted, Finally

I admitted...

I admit

My greatest fear above all else

Is to lose you...

To lose you...

These feelings circumventing of losing you...

Perfection it is...

Brave face...

No fears

No doubts

Love that woman

With your whole heart 

With your whole soul

In all you do...

Do with the expectations

To never fail her

And never allow her to slip

She is that one

That under your watch can never fail...

After so many fallen tears 

...she will not!

Have one to fall as a result of my actions

Damn It!  

I admitted 

I admit 

I love you! 

I love your life more than that of my own

For the love of Jehovah 

I am in awe of you

I am inspired 

I am elated with the simple notion of you being near

Do you know...

Do you even understand...

What the appearance of love resembles 

Have you even been touch from the inside out

Well I have and that has been the case...

Everyday since I met you

I admitted 

I admit

If only you could see beyond me

To realize a me without a you

How lost I would be?

The questioning of my sanity exists between Jehovah and I

Truly in the knowing of losing you...

I have heard your counter 

Yet in order to love you...

How you truthfully and honestly deserve 

To be loved

I must be secure with myself enough to understand...

As a not only a man...

More importantly your man...

Even though I exist...

My life has to become an embodiment of you..

To truly love you greater than I love myself 

I admitted 

I admit

You are every note felt

In my favorite instrumental 

You the most sensational being

That is so instrumental to my state of consciousness 

I am calibrated to the presence

Solidified through the embodiment

...of your womanhood 

I have been so blessed

To have been loved by you

To have nurtured by the your tenderness 

To have share consecutive monumental moments 

With you...

Only..with you

Of everything I hold so dear...

I am never oblivious of those emotions...

I felt...

I endured...

Those times I stood in prayer

While everything surrounding was falling

As I'm In tears crying, 

Showing strength yet defeated 

This...this was how I remember...

My life

My life before you...

I admit 

I admitted 

My greatest fear is...

I become human...

You see I am just a man...

That has flaws...

Unable to see pass my imperfections 

To say...

I am not worth fighting for...

When you yourself have been through so much...

My greatest fear....

Is no matter how hard I try

The love given...

Will never be equivalent to love reciprocated 

I admit it...

Finally