Fade Away ...My brutal reality

Enough heartache has been felt...

Too much hurt has been endured...

She that loved me sincerely 

Has begun her eternal rest...

So grateful I am for all...

The investment made in a child

Who should have never entered the world

No longer do we need to pretend...

No longer is toleration required 

As I fade away...

I won't say my mom...

As I have no rights

Jehovah showed me favor

By blessing me with her spirit

May he forgive me for being imperfect 

I accept my sentence

Of living the rest of my life alone

I am an unclaimed flesh

With a tormented soul

Who's spirit aches 

After my earth angel was summoned home

No longer must I pretend

No longer is tolerance a prerequisite

As I fade away

His wife...

Her mother...

Loved me with all her might

When I spoke of my discontent 

She would say...

No matter what I love you 

Your are my son...

Nothing will ever change that...

Now that she has taken her last

Blood is thicker than papers

No longer can we ignore 

No longer can we pretend 

As I fade away 

I am preparing...

To embrace my blessings 

Becoming an embodiment of her life

Provide purpose for the sacrifices

Made solely on my behalf...

So that I...

Could also fight the good fight

Until then...

Until the day my life is concluded..

I must hold on...

Faithfully remaining steadfast 

Even as I face a harsh truth 

Understanding a bitter reality...

My God... 

I am being shredded apart within 

Puddles of tears have began to camp

In the corners of my eyes

Knowing with her death certificate 

Also signs in a day of reckoning where...

There is no more pretensions 

Honesty gravitates to be front and center 

As I fade away

Grandma...

I've missed you so desperately...

Mama..

I'm having to graciously give you back...

Those that remain...

No longer must just tolerated 

My presence on your behalf 

In reverence of your life

I am peacefully fading away...