Dying To Live

Been dying to live,

For so love that I forgot to exhale 

All these toxins 

I've absorbed 

Mutilated my presence 

Strangled my existence 

And disposed of any hope or ambition 

Each crawl rushed my sins

Every jog placed haste

On my annihilation 

I knelt in prayer 

As the air thinned feeling 

Lonely and sentiments of despair 

Even as I stood

Mind over matter

When the price of my blood

Is worthless...

My outcomes and pleads

Remain unheard...

And every bit pointless 

As hover above reflecting upon what was...

I'm reminded of what was never meant 

To be...nor become 

Fighting so hard to live...

That I was the walking embodiment of death...