Can't Be Friends...

Honestly and respectfully...

For what I carry emotionally...

We can't be...

Just friends...

You may desire...

And intended for us to be...

As difficult as this may be to admit

Truthfully you may as well

Ignore my existence 

Proceeding on with life as you know it

You deserve and have my utmost...

Just be mindful...

I looked beyond the flaws

Seeking something in you...

Even you have yet to truly locate...

You

I took responsibility for your disappointments

Simply because 

It took me...

So long to find you...

Too many years...

To prepare for you

And now...

Now that I've located you...

I only see you...

Not your struggles 

Not where you need to be...

I just know wherever...

We are going...

The idea is to overcome the obstacles together 

In all I've done

In all I will continue to do

I am devoted to ensuring 

That you...

You know......

Just how important 

You...

You are too me

At the same I can't...

It is so difficult 

My heart just can't reconcile the conflict 

You've become my very best friend...

The only person I trust with my life

My female friends....

Are just that because they aren't you

And will never hold that place...

A specially reserved for only...

Only you...

Which is killing me as i recognize...

Why I'm just a friend...

Because like they to me..

I'm not him to you

Therefore no matter 

How much of myself I've given 

And have gave

You'll never see me as the one

That one you can truthfully love

Because in the end...

I'm just not him...

The love your heart desires

The person you need

In that shared space and time

Where love is a romance treasured

A smile is a lingering effect after a kiss

I'm just the confidant 

That friend that loves...

Loves you...

Absolutely loves everything about you

Love you so much...

That I'm willing to break my own heart

Because I just can't be your friend...

Knowing I'm in love with you...