I Pray

Jehovah...

It's been a while 

I've accomplished some great things

Witness some amazing wonders

And...

Yet I feel so incomplete 

Jehovah...

I laugh and smile on the perimeter 

And I'm decaying and falling apart within

Jehovah...

I have an idea of what love is...

And yet I don't know if I've ever experienced...

Love.

Jehovah...

I have theories about understanding 

And yet I've never shown the ability to truly understand 

Jehovah...

The Bible says forgive

And yet I don't think I've ever been forgiven...

Nor do I truly believe I have even been able

To forgive...

Jehovah...

I let go and let you...that's my forgiveness 

Even if I hurt myself ...

I let go...everyone else's peace is more valuable...

Than my own...

Their lives have value...

The people in their lives need them...

So I let go...

Jehovah...

So I wait...for my final breathe...

As much of a gift...Jehovah life is meant to be...

My existence means very little to so many...

So today...in this moment...

I am asking for you to show me...

The value in myself!

Jehovah!

I am praying that no matter...

What and how this world sees me...

The only person that must understand...

Their worth...

That their life has meaning...

Spiritually and humanly 

Is I...

Jehovah...I pray for the holy spirit 

To strengthen my spirit 

Comfort my soul

Restore love and compassion to my heart 

And rejuvenate my flesh

In the name of Jesus 

I Pray...

Amen