So God Has...

This is my pain...

This is my truth...

I am penciling this with my hurt

For my own resolution 

Not seeking restitution 

Nor acknowledgement 

I've carried weights

Six men shouldn't carry 

I silenced my own thoughts 

To calm the waves 

Spoke to the wind

To dispell the whispers 

Sunk my own sail

Trying tote the line

The ignorant man's muse

And the wealthy man's jester

I questioned my birth

After so many have murdered my existence 

Denial is a bitch...

Especially when it gives birth to agony 

Who raises the spirits

Defeat...

Worthlessness 

And suicide 

Fighting in your dreams so hard

That you've Stabbed yourself a thousand times 

Before getting out the bed

In a world with a billion people 

You not important to the slightest one

Every smile is sarcasm 

All sarcasm is dripping with disdain 

So just to lay you head back to drift

Closing your eyes set sail for peace

Breathe slow...

Slowly breathe...

Heart please cooperate with me...

So many days like this I wish

With it tucked in side

May I take it all way...

Prayer be damned...

Damned have I been since birth

Dad...

They took away my right

My right to see you just like they did

Mom...

They told the world...

I wasn't shit, to them

I'm tired of fighting...

Fighting to belong...

I'm now waiting to leave 

There is no purpose for me here

Let this me my truth...

Let this be my conclusion...

So God has given...

So God must take...