She That Conceived Me

She that conceived...Me!
Was told by she the conceived...Her!
To abort...Me!
Immediately after conception
Controversy swirled around me!
This inability to be embraced...
Began just after the doctor spanked me
When she that conceived me...
Never saw me...
Never embraced me...
In all the years of living
I've craved
To belong...
To be loved...
To be needed
Within that same exact moment
I'm so detached
As I've never bonded...
With she that conceived me...
In eighteen years never once did I ever...
Hear her voice
Feel her compassion...
Never once!
Had I ever heard her say...
I loved you!
She that conceived me!
Instilled this detachment
By my never attaching.
These desires to bond
The hunger to belong
The unanswered cries to be loved
Even if I was, and possibly I am...
I'll never be able to recognize...
Love
When I never experienced love at first sight
By she that conceived me
When I was delivered...